Day after day, i asked God why am i feeling this way. Why so frustrated? Why feel so down? Why can't i do more in church and in my life? Do i have stay low? hmm. Lower my standards towards how i serve in church? hmm.

Sometimes i tried to have a positive mindset towards during this period, it's just so so difficult.

Initially, the thought of coming out seems so pleasing, but now it isn't anymore. Sometimes there isn't much rest for me when i come out.

I think now things seemed more and more mundane to me. =/.